Reluctant beautiful

I've been listen up the song that i don't even understand a single word, a single meaning..
Yet, i went through it.
It means, everything on the surface, it shows its advantages, benefits, good things and etc.
Yet, come to deeper, you'll realized that there are such sadness, suffer, struggle hidden in behind.
And want to make yourself shout it louder and loudest !

A song i used to describe me myself, my thinking.
A lyric that only happened in drama, in abnormal people's life.
And I had been involved.
just because of I love you.
I've been critiqued,
I've been look down,
I've been misunderstood.
I've been hurt,
I've been cheated,
I've been a fooled,
I've been fell,
I've been cried,
I've fed up,
I've complaining,
I've learnt,
I've insisted,
I stand.
The process wasn't that easy.
It has to be required 100% strong heart 


In that process, 
Music is my damn best friend ..
MR.M you'd touched the deepest in my heart, 
much more than my parent do.
Mr.M with spiritual guru.
Mr. C captured down all the thought that I went through.
all the memories,
although it is just memory.
it will be live long in every scene in my eye, my heart.
Just like a movie film, spinning in my mind .

Earth is always the dangerous planet in the space
nothing is real.
Temporary existing.

At least i never betray on my relationship, my thought
Triangle relationship, listen up.
If really happen on me, 
Please ask she 
don't forget me,
don't forget such a pretty handsome guy,
do love her so much.
Even though, the ending doesn't goes beautiful because of me,
But the process did went beautiful because of my present..
I bless
Bless in sincere